# Cc. Antya 1.142 ## Text > ekasya śrutam eva lumpati matiṁ kṛṣṇeti nāmākṣaraṁ > sāndronmāda-paramparām upanayaty anyas ya vaṁśī-kalaḥ > eṣa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnaḥ paṭe vīkṣaṇāt > kaṣṭaṁ dhik puruṣa-traye ratir abhūn manye mṛtiḥ śreyasī ## Synonyms *ekasya*—of one person; *śrutam*—heard; *eva*—certainly; *lumpati*—take away; *matim*—the mind; *kṛṣṇa* *iti*—Kṛṣṇa; *nāma*-*akṣaram*—the letters of the name; *sāndra*-*unmāda*—of intense madness; *paramparām*—a shower; *upanayati*—brings; *anyasya*—of another; *vaṁśī*-*kalaḥ*—the sound vibration of the flute; *eṣaḥ*—this third one; *snigdha*—giving love; *ghana*-*dyutiḥ*—lightninglike effulgence; *manasi*—in the mind; *me*—My; *lagnaḥ*—attachment; *paṭe*—in the picture; *vīkṣaṇāt*—by seeing; *kaṣṭam* *dhik*—oh, shame upon Me; *puruṣa*-*traye*—to three persons; *ratiḥ*—attachment; *abhūt*—has appeared; *manye*—I think; *mṛtiḥ*—death; *śreyasī*—better. ## Translation **Experiencing previous attachment to Kṛṣṇa [pūrva-rāga], Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī thought: "Since I have heard the name of a person called Kṛṣṇa, I have practically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in such a way that after I hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart. And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached when I see His beautiful lightning effulgence in His picture. Therefore I think that I am greatly condemned, for I have become simultaneously attached to three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this."** ## Purport This verse is from *Vidagdha-mādhava* (2.9).